65/You May Not Know/Master Is The Most Lonely Person

★☆ You May Not Know ☆★
Spoken by Supreme Master Ching Hai, Hsihu Center, Formosa June 4, 1995 (Originally In English, unabridged) 　I have to be father, mother, judge, the policeman, angel and Yama King at the same time. The king of the nether world, you don't know him. My friend. If you are not behaving yourselves, I'll send you to him, saying, "Well, take care of them." The king of the nether world, the lord of karma, he takes care of our give-and-take so that we will be clear when we leave the world. If we are not clear, we can't leave. We have to come back. The master sometimes takes on the role of that kind of lord karma, part of it; so that he can immediately cleanse the karma of the so-called disciples -- doesn't matter how painful it is for both sides -- so that he is clean so he can leave this world easily. It's very, very difficult. 　I'm very happy for you and for myself that you have always understood and forgiven me, even though you don't understand what I do sometimes. You don't understand why I scold that person, why I send that person away, or why I treat that person more special than you. You perhaps don't understand all the time, but I'm very grateful and happy that you always forgive me. Even you don't know it's right or wrong, you forgive me. That's already very good for me and good for you because that means you are very generous, you are very tolerant, you are very gentle, very wise inside. That means you have matured in wisdom and spiritual practice. That's very, very good for you. Of course, if you forgive me, I feel very relaxed and no pressure, no misunderstanding, bad energy. That's good for me, too. But above all, it's very, very good for you. That's why I'm happy. I hope you continue in this spirit, trying to understand things at a deeper level of consciousness and not from the outer appearance. 　If you didn't understand me, I would be the most lonely person in this world. It would also give you a lot of pain in your heart; because you are harboring this kind of misunderstanding, this kind of negative energy towards me. That also hinders your spiritual practice. So, for either side, it's no good. Sometimes I feel very, very lonely, because surrounding me are not always good and forgiving people. They always have their negative traces, maybe from last life, or maybe from this life, they learned from society. Even children, very, very unforgiving. Sometimes, when they see me at work, if I scold someone else, they get scared, too, and then they don't like me. That, sometimes, makes me feel very painful. Not because I've lost them, but because it always happens that you can never do your job without having side effects to some degree. You cannot, with so many people. I cannot always avoid unpleasant moments for everyone or for the children. So, sometimes when I see people have misunderstood me or shied away from me, I feel hurt also. I feel very lonely. But nevertheless, my job has to be done. So, whatever the price, I pay. 　Eventually, when we all go up to a very high level of consciousness, we all look down together, then we'll all have a good laugh; because we were all very stupid then, taking theater for real, looking at the reflection in the mirror for the true image. So, we will be laughing at ourselves at the final moment when we join together at a very, very, very high level of wisdom. For that very noble and high goal, I sacrifice everything and I can go through any hardship, misunderstanding, negative thick fog of energy because I know eventually there is nothing there at the other end. There's only brightness, beauty, grace, love and harmony at the other end. That's how I can continue. Otherwise, to be a teacher of any kind is a very lonely position. When all the students have graduated, grown up, have a good job, and understood and appreciated you, you will probably already be in the grave or have suffered a lot of psychological pressure, sickness.

★☆ You May Not Know ☆★

Spoken by Supreme Master Ching Hai, Hsihu Center, Formosa
June 4, 1995 (Originally In English, unabridged)

　I have to be father, mother, judge, the policeman, angel and Yama King at the same time. The king of the nether world, you don't know him. My friend. If you are not behaving yourselves, I'll send you to him, saying, "Well, take care of them." The king of the nether world, the lord of karma, he takes care of our give-and-take so that we will be clear when we leave the world. If we are not clear, we can't leave. We have to come back. The master sometimes takes on the role of that kind of lord karma, part of it; so that he can immediately cleanse the karma of the so-called disciples -- doesn't matter how painful it is for both sides -- so that he is clean so he can leave this world easily. It's very, very difficult.

　I'm very happy for you and for myself that you have always understood and forgiven me, even though you don't understand what I do sometimes. You don't understand why I scold that person, why I send that person away, or why I treat that person more special than you. You perhaps don't understand all the time, but I'm very grateful and happy that you always forgive me. Even you don't know it's right or wrong, you forgive me. That's already very good for me and good for you because that means you are very generous, you are very tolerant, you are very gentle, very wise inside. That means you have matured in wisdom and spiritual practice. That's very, very good for you. Of course, if you forgive me, I feel very relaxed and no pressure, no misunderstanding, bad energy. That's good for me, too. But above all, it's very, very good for you. That's why I'm happy. I hope you continue in this spirit, trying to understand things at a deeper level of consciousness and not from the outer appearance.

　If you didn't understand me, I would be the most lonely person in this world. It would also give you a lot of pain in your heart; because you are harboring this kind of misunderstanding, this kind of negative energy towards me. That also hinders your spiritual practice. So, for either side, it's no good. Sometimes I feel very, very lonely, because surrounding me are not always good and forgiving people. They always have their negative traces, maybe from last life, or maybe from this life, they learned from society. Even children, very, very unforgiving. Sometimes, when they see me at work, if I scold someone else, they get scared, too, and then they don't like me. That, sometimes, makes me feel very painful. Not because I've lost them, but because it always happens that you can never do your job without having side effects to some degree. You cannot, with so many people. I cannot always avoid unpleasant moments for everyone or for the children. So, sometimes when I see people have misunderstood me or shied away from me, I feel hurt also. I feel very lonely. But nevertheless, my job has to be done. So, whatever the price, I pay.

　Eventually, when we all go up to a very high level of consciousness, we all look down together, then we'll all have a good laugh; because we were all very stupid then, taking theater for real, looking at the reflection in the mirror for the true image. So, we will be laughing at ourselves at the final moment when we join together at a very, very, very high level of wisdom. For that very noble and high goal, I sacrifice everything and I can go through any hardship, misunderstanding, negative thick fog of energy because I know eventually there is nothing there at the other end. There's only brightness, beauty, grace, love and harmony at the other end. That's how I can continue. Otherwise, to be a teacher of any kind is a very lonely position. When all the students have graduated, grown up, have a good job, and understood and appreciated you, you will probably already be in the grave or have suffered a lot of psychological pressure, sickness.